I know that I am not the only Master here on this website, and that is my target audience for this question however all input is welcome. So I am the third highest rank in my school, I am a 4th degree black belt certified in WTF with kukkiwon and ITF with the AAU in America. The next higher rank is older, she has a hard time learning new higher up patterns and she doesn't feel comfortable teaching me 4th dan and higher patterns. My Master has very little time and I will be heading off to college soon. Is it wrong of me to teach myself the fourth dan patterns? I already learned Pyong Won from my Master and am currently teaching myself Choi Yong (It's lower then 4th dan but my Master and his Grandmaster never taught the pattern). I feel slightly guilty but I am eager to learn, what should I do?